I really miss Jonathan. He was such a great brother. He was…fun. He was really fun. I feel like I should be going to SF to visit him any time now. Sometimes when I look at his picture, I flinch and look away. That’s b/c I can’t and don’t want to believe that it’s real, he’s gone. I know this will take a lot of time to process and I think right now I’m willing it away. I do have dreams about him…and memories. I can’t believe he threw a dart in my foot and paid me a penny or something not to tell! I remember when he got married. He was so happy and excited! I remember him showing us around U of I. I remember the fortune cookie saying that Bryce was going to be a big brother. I remember countless hours on the phone with him trying to fix my computer. Gosh, such a great brother. More than anything, I’ll always remember that he taught me to express love. He gave that to us all. And Jonathan, I’m not waiting anymore. Roy and I are going to Paris in June and that trip is 100% dedicated to you. Don’t wait. Well, I’m not waiting. I want everyone to know how much I love you and that you’ll always be my awesome brother. You never were, you always are. I love you.